i love fat things.

ky.

2011-02-14T13:22:00.005+08:00

Tumblr, for you. You'll know.

imissyou.

for you ♥

2011-02-13T20:40:00.003+08:00

Well, you left. Didn't make it to KL to send you off, I'm sorry. Thanks for texting me and bringing my things along with you to Aussieland. I'm started missing you already yknow. Thanks for saying goodbye to me and am sorry that I didn't really reply, as it cannot be sent out anymore. Sorry I can't accept the fact that you're leaving. A very big thank you to you for sending me goodnight text every night before you sleep. I'm sorry that I never really did once reply you. Didn't know yesterday's was the last goodnight text from you. I'm sorry I still did not reply you. I'm regret. I'm sorry I wished you nothing when I knew that you're leaving for Aussie. Not even a goodluck. I'm real sorry. I feel bad. Never really have someone that is super close to me who's leaving me, and you're the first. Goodluck, my dearest ky. I'll wait for you and, I'll see you soon then. imy ♥

Dear ky.

2011-02-01T18:17:00.003+08:00

No matter how many years go by,
I know one thing to be as true as ever was -
I'll see you soon then.

peace.

2011-01-31T16:37:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is just around the corner, nothing much difference. The most obvious one will be not going to stay at home but visiting relatives' houses. Gosh, I hate this. Though I can finish up all the chinese cookies and snacks. I'm always so glutton.

Dropped by at clinic and got my blood test report. As I predicted, it's not a good result and I know I am gonna suffer more from today onwards. Just be strong. Injections and blood drawings have been very common to me, it's part of my monthly routine. Too bad, I still can't get myself be scared of these two things. I love needles. Okayyyyy, I sound scary. Pray harder than before, hoping myself can get rid of those pills and be the healthiest person in the world. No more flu, no more migrane and no more cramps please. I know I'm all alone now, so I gotta be the strongest girl.

Well, university stuff has never been nice to me. Heard a bad news from mum yesterday. This is just, awesome. I went totally speechless. Stunned and did not want to make any explanation after hearing her words. Anyway, I'm not going to give up so easily. I wanna fight for what I deserve to have. Sigh, money matters the most, again. Can't wait to travel alone, this got me so excited.

Malaysia has been raining for 3 days, and it's non-stop. Weather has been super cold and according to my weather gadget in my lappy, it's around 23 degree celcius. It is even colder when it rains heavily. Gosh, this worsen my cramps. Rainy days stop me from going out and I feel like I'm grounded. But it's good, won't need to spend money. Staying in my bed and doing nothing is the most wonderful thing and can always make my day. Read PS I Love You for the nth time. Have this sudden urge to read tonnes of books and so I got myself to bookstore but went home empty-handed. Wanted to buy Nicholas Sparks's books but I bought none. Stucked at home and so I watched "The Notebook" online.

"The Notebook" is just, awesome! It begins with an old man, reading out of a notebook to an old lady about the love story between two young lovers, Noah and Allie. He acts as the narrator in this movie. Surprisingly, when the old man started to tell story to the old woman, I already knew how the story gonna be like and end like. I somehow made a wild prediction and guess what, it all comes out in the movie. I'm just so awesome, HAHA. The old man pretend he doesn't know the old lady as she losses her memory. In the end, Allie realized that she and Noah, the old man are the people in the book. I'm so touched by the eternal love given to Allie by Noah and how his love moves her. They dance and then she relapses. She has to get a shot from the nurse as she believes that Noah is an intruder and Noah gets upset. When he goes to sleep, he looks at the books and we find out that Allie herself wrote the book and told him to "Read this to me, and I'll come back to you" every time. The next morning the nurse finds Noah in a critical condition, and he is saved from his heart attack and finds Allie. She is able to remember Noah and asks him whether their love is strong enough to make miracles and take them away together. Noah says that their love can do whatever they want it to do, and in the morning, they are both found dead, sleeping peacefully while holding hands. Isn't the ending awesome. Obviously, it makes me weepy and a bit of nostalgic when I'm trying to think back about us. How things couldn't be worked out and how relationship destroyed a friendship. I can't wait to read this book and I'm so gonna get all Nicholas Sparks's books asap.

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever. - The Notebook

imy.

2011-01-28T21:10:00.001+08:00

Hey 我很想你你要好好照顾自己你知道我最担心你了 Dwaeji Tokki (:

unbearable pain.

2011-01-25T21:26:00.002+08:00

Doc warned and said it's going to be more painful than what I usually feel these few days. Oh great, there it started. The right side of my body is almost paralyze. Yea, I'm feeling weak now and I hate it. Never knew that the effect can be so strong and painful. Did not even feel a thing during injection and blood drawing. And now? My right hand and right leg are in real pain. Can I cry. This is really unbearable and its driving me real mad. *Hypnotizing myself, it's not pain at all.

Anonymous, you're welcomed to write your name next time. Thanks for the comment!

madddd.

2011-01-23T23:08:00.001+08:00

Don't you just hate the first day of your period. I can always and forever suffer with the freakin' period pain. And never can get anything done. I don't scold people but I can be super weird and quiet on the first day. I hate this pain which never allow me to sleep soundly, even when I'm mad tired. Pink panadols have never worked but still for the sake of trying, I swallow the pills down. Injection sucks more. Had an injection due to the unbearable period pain and I've got my thigh numb and pain all the times, until now. I remember having it on Sep 10. Now it's already Jan 11. And the numbness has never really stopped. Blahh this is really driving me crazy. Everything is out of my control, my studies my love and everything. Oh gosh, can I have a place to vent my frustrations.

Whatever. I ain't not going to take the initiative anymore. It's all up to you now. I'm sick of these craps.

I live my way.

2011-01-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

I've got so many things to tell you.

But I wonder, when will you have the time to listen to me ..

I told before and you don't seem to give a fcuking damn.

I said and you keep on lalalalaing as replies.

There are so many things that I don't know about you,

and you don't know about me.

Anyone except you seems to understand me more than you do.

Is this the way of being there for me, as you promised?

Is this the way of listening to me, as you asked?

If this is so, I'd say very awesome.

Stop fucking around.

2011-01-17T00:53:00.002+08:00

Here's to all the guys out there who likes to fuck around;

There is a chemical in a girls’ brain that released only at two different times in her life, when she has sex, and when she breast feeds her baby. This chemical emotionally connects her to another person for the rest of her life. Us guys? We only release this chemical when we bond with our children. So if you think sex is a game and go around fucking as many girls as you want, remember that you will mentally mess this girl for the rest of her life. If you’re still friends afterwards then whatever, but she will always have the same feeling toward you because of this chemical. Just a little bit of science.

Sources: Evelyn's blogspot AND Tumblr

bunnylicious.

2011-01-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

Aren't the nails looking awesome? Bunny! (:

7-Princess.

2011-01-14T02:30:00.004+08:00

Juat realised that I've blog about so many important people in my life, and yet I forgot the most important and true friends I have. I apologize for being so forgetful. And who are they? No doubt, my lovely and forever pretty princesses.

Most of us first met each other on the first day of secondary life. Got so reluctant to enter a school where most of them speak fluent english. Well, the first friend I made was not any one of them. But maybe it's fate, we became friends. Not only just friends, but the bestest kind of friends. We used to be a real big gang but due to some immature problems, people come and go. But I do believe that those who stayed are the truest. From a gang of 10 plus people, and now it left with 7 of us. Did not know who got the weird idea of inventing name for our gang of 7. We call ourselves princesses, yea it might sounds disgusting but so what. What more important is that we did not mind of calling ourselves that, even though most of us felt disgusted before. Got our princess position by according our D.o.B.

Tee Hui Mien,
The first and eldest princess among us. Got herself the special moon hairstyle in form1. Did not even has her number when we were in form1. Sounds very not close right, but I've no idea why, I just feel comfortable having her around me. She used to be quiet and fought with Baayiwei in form1. She hates petty and small-minded people, HAHA. A foon yew 1 girl with smart brain and she is the funniest among us. She doesn't like to talk to strangers but I'm glad she talks so much to me now. She can never failed to make any one of us laugh. She loves playing game, I mean those super complicated and extremely hard games. She can always score well in the exam even though she always failed to study all the syllabus. How I wish I can have just half of her brain. All the best to you and Manie in NZ. I Love You~! Jiayous :)

Leo Kitt Huii,
The one and only BANANA in our gang. Used to speak english with the rest Bananas but now she speaks mandarin to them. The one wearing frameless-pink-lens spectacles in form 1. The one wearing zips-zips shirt and the first to take neoprint with me and Huihui. Those were good memories but the photos are just, speechless. The way she eats can always 'amazes' people, even a stranger. If you can accept the way she looks when she eats, you're qualified to be one of her admirers HAHA. The one that can always make me burst into tears just by saying, Don't cry wanqing. Why? Hmm I've no idea. Maybe is the warmth and the cares I feel from her words and her face. No worries, I'm so much stronger now. She loves pink, madly in love with pink I'd say. The same thing, all the best to you in NZ. I Love You jiejie honey manie! :)

Lim Pey Yi,
We sat the same bus and got ourselves late on the first day of secondary life, how funny. Reached school at around 2pm where the class supposed to start at 1pm. She's tall and super skinny. We took public bus back home together during f4 and f5. The only victim that got Baa's saliva+mucus all over her pinafore HAHAHA. She is cool and the way she 'sut' people can be real funny. Especially when she's picking on Tan or Huihui. She is one day younger than Jiejie. The one who owns a Pang's box in her house. Always stayover at her house with Baa during f3-5. We even countdown at home together. Those were the times. Ohya, she is the only one that I can actually give her presents and cards right on her birthday. How awesome. Anyway, jiayous while studying in SIM. I Love You BFF! :)

Tan Ee Lin,
She looked super cute and fair and thin when she was in form1. Now? I would say, sui yue bu rao ren. Hahaha, she gained weight and got a lil bit feng cheng wei. Anyway, she did not come to school on the first day if I'm not mistaken. She has the most love experiences among us, even more than me. Can imagine how experienced she is right. Got herself bfs and got hurt at the same time. Have always been so silly when she faces love. The only one who loves to use bad words when something is getting on her nerve. She shares the same birthday as Baa's mummy. Loves to spend tonnes of money on useless stuffs. Please la, stop clubbing and better concentrate on your studies. We're so not going to do nothing if you go to club again. Please, stop wasting your time and money. You know we love you, please don't disappoint us. Anyway, stay chubby and winnie-the-pooh-licious. Study hard and stop fooling around alright. This might sounds rude but I know you know what I'm trying to say. I Love You! :)

Low Sin Hui,
I love saying I hate her, but she knows I love her a lot. Another smart girl and almost has the same level of cleverness with Mien. My ex-dear and I actually forgot why she became the Ex. She can be real stressful and change to another person when it comes to exam. Forever complain about how bad she did but always ended up getting A. She is the most glutton person I've ever met and seen. She doesn't like to eat her own food but others'. She can finish half of others' food in just a short time with her super huge mouth. Got herself braces and look so much prettier now. Gained weight after staying at KL. See lar, serves you right HAHA. She pushed me outta her house and I will never forget this. Hmph! Remember, dentist has the highest suicide rate among all the professions. Take care when you go India, I will miss you a bit. Not as much as Mien will do. Don't be too stress out, we have faith in you. Jiayous and all the best, I Love You! :)

Baa Yi Wei,
My forever BFF! She is the most awesome person I've ever met. Been very close to her since we become good friends. I still remember the way she cried when I told her she's pretty. How adorable right. Despite the big nostrils of hers, she is the prettiest girl I've ever seen. I mean it. She shares her things with me and I share mine with her. She can always support me in everything I do. She knows me best, a bit more than tky does. She can read my mind. The telepathy between us can always shock and disgust us. I mean, in a good way. I love staying over at her place and leaves my poopoo there. But hers are always more smelly. She loves to fart. It's great to know that I'm getting along well with her family and so does she, to my family. She always know the right thing to say when I'm down. And she actually realize it whenever I'm having crush on someone. For example, this year's. Two of us can always laugh our asses off at something that is not funny. I mean, laugh for minutes or even hours. I'm so gonna miss her when I go for studies. Jiayous sweetie pie! All the best for your Alevels, I Love You the most! :)

WAITTT, LAST BUT NOT LEAST. The prettiest princess, and that's ME! Yes, i am a narcissist!

I bet all of us actually worried about our friendship when we graduated from convent. Different schools, different place and different friends met are not the barriers to stop our friendship. These girls are just the awesome-est of the awesomes. And one best thing about our gang is, none of us are really pro in doing make up. Some of them will but never those super thick make ups. We're just not the girlish type of girls. We don't like wearing laceeey dresses, I mean most of them. We always prefer a tee with shorts and sandals! We never really discussed about what dress to buy, but what slippers and sandals to buy. HAHAHA. We are always so true to each other. Lies? Yes, white lies. We never talked bad about each other behind, because we always do it in front of their faces. And none of us will really get mad at the person that accuses us. I guess thats why we can remain so close and true. I appreciate their existance in my life. I'm so gonna miss them after Feb. Thank you girl, I love you all real much! (:

Eww.

2011-01-08T02:23:00.002+08:00

What are nocturnal leg cramps?
These cramps are sudden, involuntary contractions of the calf muscles that occur during the night or while at rest. Occasionally, muscles in the soles of the feet also become cramped. The sensation can last a few seconds or up to 10 minutes, but the soreness may linger. The cramps can affect persons in any age-group, but they tend to occur in middle-aged and older populations.

What can I do to prevent these cramps?
To stave off future episodes of nocturnal leg cramps, consider the following tips:
*Drink six to eight glasses of water daily. Doing so will help prevent dehydration, which may play a role in the cramping.
*Stretch calves regularly throughout the day and at night.
*Ride a stationary bicycle for a few minutes before bedtime. This activity can help prevent cramps from developing during the night, especially if you do not get a lot of exercise during the day.
*Keep blankets loose at the foot of the bed to prevent your toes and feet from pointing downward while you sleep.
*Do aquatic exercises regularly during the week to help stretch and condition your muscles.
*Wear proper foot gear.

Nocturnal muscle cramps can often be prevented by doing leg-stretching exercises, such as the one outlined below.
1. Stand 30 inches from the wall.
2. While keeping your heels on the floor, lean forward, put your hands on the wall, and slowly move your hands up the wall as far as you can reach comfortably.
3. Hold the stretched position for 30 seconds. Release.
4. Repeat steps 1 through 3 two more times.
5. For best results, practice this exercise in the morning, before your evening meal, and before going to bed each night.

Heard that this sickness is always suffered by the people at the middle-ages. So, am I growing too old or what. I just want a night without the needs to wear socks. :/ Thank you for your help and concerns anyway. You're always the first to know things of mine. You know who you are.

what do i like?

2011-01-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Tell me which one to click on, please. Anyone?

eatPRAYlove.

2011-01-03T19:29:00.003+08:00

Just some guidance and encouragement from anyone, out there? No more santa claus for me to make wishes to. Dear Fairy Godmother, I sincerely need and request for your helping hand to guide me through all these. Had some bad days and I am so lost right now. No, definitely I am not emo. Just kinda depressed and stressed out. Will I able to make the right choice if I pray harder? I just need a hint, a hint that could most probably change my life. Please. Grant me someone to put my trust and faith on. Anyone, help? :(

twozerooneone

2011-01-02T22:48:00.007+08:00

So, it's a brand new year. 2011, year of Rabbit. (Y) A new year, not only for me, but for everyone and also everything. Well, come to think of it, I remembered I used to get everything done before last year's Christmas. I mean, the enrollment of college. Now, ending of college indicates the beginning of my U life. Gosh, I couldn't accept how old I am now and one more year later, I'm gonna be 20s. Awesome right. I don't even feel like I'm 18 now. Apparently, I'm still as childish as I used to. Anyway, I'm still undecide about my U life, my course and where to study. Urgently seek for a guidance counselor to guide me.

Most of my Ausmat friends had decide where to pursue and further their studies. I wish I could too. I should have planned it long time ago right. Sigh. I am 19 this year. I can't even decide thing for my future. Argh failure. Did not satisfy parents with my results, Nahh it's okay I tried my best. Bothered them with my health problems, Nahh it's okay I did not want that either. Hurt them because of my weak characteristics, Nahh it's okay they've always been there. Failure isn't it.

Been through ups and downs last year. Life is all about falling down and getting up again right. But over frequent of falling down leads no success. I can vividly remember the first day I went to college, I sticked to my convent friends. I hate the game played during orientation. I hate talking to strangers. I hate crowd. But I kinda miss it now. Met Mr.Alan for the very first time during registration and then in classroom 101. I still remember he asked, any question? and I raised up my hand and said, may I go to toilet sir? Kinda funny isn't it. Then, got to know friends from every corner. But ironically, all in the state of Johor. Tonnes of assignments had really did kill us, but we never really did give up. We're just, awesome right. Used to complain about how hard and complicated the assignments given are, but in the end, all can actually completed them. Did not know I can get to know this person, the most awesome amongst the awesome-s. Been through heartbreak moments, the fall-down. Yes, having phobia now. Kinda afraid of commitments and relationships now. Even friendships suck sometimes. People with minor split personalities, scared me. And just in a blink of eye, 10 months passed. Time passed super duper slow while we were rushing for assignments but flies when we just started to enjoy the course. Apparently, I am glad. Glad that I've been through all these in such a short period. Glad that I made good friends and met a good boy.

Life is unpredictable. And currently I don't know where will I be next day, next month or next year. Hopefully I can make a good choice and have no regrets in my future. Let go the past, look forward to the future. Fighting!

Nice to meet you, 2011.

2010-12-31T13:25:00.002+08:00

So gonna stay at home in this New Year Eve. Countdown in my dreamland with my toys. It's a peaceful and leisure life I lead. Goodluck to myself in the coming year. I'm still gonna be the ME and am not changed yet. I'll be fine, I'll recover from all these real soon. Will try my best to be the healthiest people in the world. No more sickness and no more being emotional. Stay strong and fight through all these, yes I will. Gonna smile through the whole past 2010 and welcome the new 2011 with a big warm hug and a great laughter, without leaving the memories behind. New year wish, PEACE. For everyone, every family, every relationship, every problem and every thing. Byebye 2010. Hello 2011! (:

We're typical tourists.

2010-12-30T20:30:00.005+08:00

Singapore trip on 28th of December 2010 was awesome. Came out from house quite late and that delayed the time. Reached Sg at around 2.30pm and started our journey there. Went to Sentosa Siloso beach, Underwater world, and places around Universal Studio. Then, had a great walk at Orchard just to enjoy the decors. Those were really awesome, especially the lights, very attractive and beautiful. Took lots of pictures of myself, him, us, the lights and the fishes. Got ourselves back to house at around 2am. It was indeed a happy yet tiring trip. Very enjoyable and memorable I'd say. Great time spending with you, thank you! Pictures are available in my Facebook album, just a click on the title and it will leads you there. (: The next day, went CS and watched a movie called "Little Fockers". Yea, tonnes of bad words uttered from the actors' mouths. I felt disgusted. Had lunch and dinner together, for the very last time I guess. Then, time to say goodbye. :(

Been smiling and laughing a lot these few days. Feeling extremely happy and excited these few days. Why? I think it's because I went to Singapore and never get myself lost at there. And I went to beach. Aww, I love beaches. But the only true reason is, you made me smile. Thank you!

Well, thanks for the baby plant! I love it.

Will definitely take good care of it and help him to cut his hair.

I'm a great mummy. Thank you.

I rock, I rule.

2010-12-30T19:48:00.007+08:00

Two more days to year 2011. Byebye college life and say a BIG hello to my Uni life. Ew, I hate it. Hate the first day of school, can always get so awkward and feeling disgusted. But anyway, I guess I'm still gonna miss it once I finished my studies. I hope I'm right. By the way, I am not so gonna tell anyone about my plan. Sometimes it's just good to be alone, without anyone by your side. I enjoy every single moment of it. So yea, don't try to find out where am I going and what will I be doing. 'Cause you know, I'll always keep my mouth shut about it. Well, maybe I should let Baabaa know.

Well, got myself informed that WACE result is releasing today. To be exact, 30th of December year 2010. But what's strange is that we can actually check our result yesterday, which is 29th of December. So yea, I did not feeling nervous but temperature of my body's been dropping and I was feeling extremely cold. I got myself login to the TISC website and checked the result. Saw figures and grades in the Statement of Results but yea, the marks are at the average of 60-79. The first heart attack I'd say as I did not know that I was asked to check for ATAR, but not the mark. So yea, I checked again in the PDF file in TISC website. Finally saw the ATAR and yea, higher than what I expected but mummy wonder why didn't I get 90 and above. Well, did get a little bit disappointed when I heard those words. But never mind, I did try my best and I'm glad that Ms How and Ms Shereen are happy for us. Grats to those who get high ATAR, you know who you are.

Results out. It's time to decide where to further my studies. Gosh, I hate this men. I enjoy procrastinating a lot. U life, I would have to take the right path. But I've no idea what course I'm interested in. I do not even know what I like. I know I'll have to make a decision soon, but definitely it would not be now. I hate being rushed. I wanna make the right and the wisest decision, with no regrets in the future. Who will be there, lending me your helping hard to guide me for my decision? I'm so lost when people utters things about this. What to do. I always hate the beginning but love the ending. So just pray and hope that I will be able to love both this time. At least for my college life, Yes I do love both. So god, make my U life an awesome one please.

I don't know if this Nov and Dec are counted as holidays for me or not. If it's so, I would say that I enjoyed it quite well. With my family, sec friends, Ausmat friends and some special friends too. Steamboat with Ausmatians after completion ceremony. Sunway Student Ambassadors' Appreciation Night at Grand Straits Garden. Ausmat trip to Malacca. Family trip to Malacca, again. Gathering and stayover with my beloved 7-Princess. Worked for Sunway Open Days. Indeed, every outing and gathering was awesome.

Thought it would be the last outing for Ausmatians, but until now it has not end yet. How awesome. Ausmat trip to Malacca was fun but tiring. Great time spent with the girls while playing Heart Attack, the boys while playing Buggy, all while playing at the Waterpark and someone during night. Family trip to the same place, it sounds funny but luckily we went to some other places. The real food trip and enjoyed many scrumptious meals. Extremely appetizing food forced me to gain some weights. Aww. Meeting up with my girlfriends was the happiest among all I guess. Spending time with them brought back lots of memories of us. The fun we had, the jokes we laughed at, the time we spent together. It's all fate that brings us all together, and makes us the bestest friends. First time working for Sunway Open Days. Realized that I did not even come for Open Day last year before enquiring for Ausmat. But luckily, the visitors are all very friendly and the daddys were all humorous. I miss my father-in-law Haha. Well, I guess that's all for the outings with my loving and awesome friends. You guys are awesome, thanks for the memories. Goodluck peeps!

The first promise to myself in this coming new year, never lose the faith in myself.
By holding on to the things I love, the things I am, and the things I'd never want to lose.
I'm awesome, and that goes the same to all of you. (:

Friends ♥

2010-12-26T14:40:00.001+08:00

Extracted from @Michelle Tai's notes

HoHoHo.

2010-12-25T00:19:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas people!

Well, what do I want for this Christmas?

~ No more breathing difficulties and foot cramps.

~ Good WACE result.

~ Peaceful family life.

Never want to be greedy for anything. So I guess I wouldn't want to ask for more, especially things about relationships. So, just let nature takes its course. Treasure what I have is the best thing I can do for myself, at least for this current moment. So, be grateful and appreciative. Have a nice day people. Peace (Y)

With loves and hugs. xoxo

Advantages Of Being A Woman

2010-12-24T00:19:00.001+08:00

Why it's better to be a Woman!

1. We got off the Titanic first.
2. We get to flirt with systems support men who always return our calls, and are nice to us when we blow up our computers.
3. Our boyfriend's clothes make us look elfin & gorgeous. Guys look like complete idiots in ours.
4. We can be groupies. Male groupies are stalkers.
5. We can cry and get off speeding fines.
6. We've never lusted after a cartoon character or the central female figure in a computer game.
7. Taxis stop for us.
8. Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance.
9. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
10. Free drinks, Free dinners, Free movies ... (you get the point).
11. We can hug our friends without wondering if she thinks we're gay.
12. We can hug our friends without wondering if WE'RE gay.
13. New lipstick gives us a whole new lease on life.
14. It's possible to live our whole lives without ever taking a group shower.
15. We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves.
16. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
17. We can congratulate our team-mate without ever touching her butt.
18. If we have a zit, we know how to conceal it.
19. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
20. If we're dumb, some people will find it cute.
21. We don't have to memorize Caddyshack or Fletch to fit in.
22. We have the ability to dress ourselves.
23. We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.
24. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we're aware that we look like an idiot.
25. Our friends won't think we're weird if we ask whether there's spinach in our teeth.
26. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
27. We'll never regret piercing our ears.
28. We can fully assess a person just by looking at their shoes.
29. We know which glass was ours by the lipstick mark.
30. We have enough sense to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions.

How are foot cramps caused?

2010-12-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

One of the major health problems I'm facing now, foot cramps. It happens very frequently especially during nights. :(

Foot cramps have many causes. Some of the most common causes for foot cramps are:
Stress or fatigue in the foot – An overworked foot is often susceptible to foot cramps.
Poor circulation – Foot cramp is caused by lack of oxygen being carried to the foot.
Lack of potassium – This important mineral, found in salt, helps regulate body chemistry and keep you foot cramp free.
Dehydration – Lack of water in the muscles contribute to foot cramps.
Changing hormone levels – Foot cramps may occur while muscle tissue adjusts to these changes.
Pinched nerves – Caused when the electrical impulse from the brain cannot reach the muscle, this can cause foot cramps, numbness and other symptoms.
Alcohol or tobacco use – Since both lend to dehydration, poor circulation and toxicity, these are a triple threat for foot cramps.
Nutritional deficiency – A healthy diet, complete with all essential nutrients can keep muscles and nerves functioning normally.
Environmental toxicity – Certain “poisons” we encounter (via factories, contaminated water, etc.) may play a role in increased foot cramps.
Chemical sensitivity – Some prescriptions may change the conditions in the body and make foot cramps more likely.

extracted from "Foot Cramps" <http://www.footcare-central.com/Articles/408-foot-cramps.htm>

brb.

2010-11-28T23:51:00.007+08:00

I'm going to abandon this blog for quite a while. Most probably until the time where everything has comes to an end. Won't be update any recent things or feelings. Gonna sort and get everything back onto the right track. Ciao and take care people!

Graduated.

2010-11-20T21:43:00.011+08:00

Graduation ceremony will never be nice. For me, you can easily see tears rolling in my eyes or tissue papers all over my face. Sadness hung over my face. Hugs and wishes from friends and lecturers never failed to make me weep. Special surprise from Sista is really touching. Glad that daddy mummy can actually attended this ceremony, together. This is an ending of Ausmat 2010. Thank you guys. We may hardly seeing each other after today, but please do keep in touch. Just visit Sunway JB whenever you're free and you might see one or two of us will be there. The montage is the most awesome montage I've ever seen. There are all memories of this college life. Just remember something, always have faith in yourself. I apologize for any mistake I've done to any one of you. All the best and goodluck friends! We laugh together, cry together, AUSMATIANS FOR LIFE!

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We might not be able to meet each other, after 26th. I will definitely miss you. As my ex-boyfriend, my listener and my bestest friend.

*You will always be stressed out whenever you're confused of things in life, or whenever it comes to a test or an exam. Don't be, you can always figured out a way to solve it. Remember to Jiayous, as I mentioned in the card.

*You don't really show your true feelings in front of your friends, even when you're sad. Please don't keep everything to yourself. Find someone you can put your trust on and share with them. I might not be the one, but I can always turn into one if you need me.

*You this big fat hungry ghost. Can always eat large amount of food and your diet plan has been failing all the times. No dieting please, you know you look nicer in this current body figure.

*You have been so clumsy and forgetful. Never failed to forget a thing each day. Typical Mr.forgetful, try to use some sticky notes or reminder to remind yourself alright.

*You can always get a lil bit sick and worn out. Get some rest whenever you have time. Relax your mind and take good care of yourself.

*You love gaming and have always been busy because of this. Don't be alright. Don't get addicted. Relax your eyes.

*You don't like using phone or texting. But whenever you have a free time, just do so. Keep in touch with friends. Not only limited to Facebook.

*You have been so confused with which course to take in your U. Any one, as long as it's your choice, you will always have me to support you. Regardless of where both of us are in.

*You have been so emo throughout the year. This is not you, I'm very sure even though I didn't meet or know you before this course. Have faith and try to find back the real you. The happy-go-lucky tky.

Stresses are good, and it's all depends on how you deal with it. I believe you can always stay happy, but I am not sure if you can overcome this or not. Don't be confused. Pursue for things you've been desired for. Don't hesitate. Jiayous. I don't know if you still treat me as your good friend. But I always do. Thanks for all the memories, both good and bad. I am really sorry for bad or wrong things I've ever done to you. Please do forgive me. For my selfishness, emotional thinkings, not being understanding, bad temper, I sincerely apologize to you. Thanks for your endurance and cares. Thanks for the effort and loves you've given me. Sorry that I've not been treating you good, not even for a day. Thanks for the attention, concerns and understanding you've given to me. Sorry for not being able to be a good girlfriend, good listener, good adviser and good closefriend to you. And lastly, sorry for ruining your first love. Thank you Tan Kang Yi. I am really PROUD OF YOU.

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End of AUSMAT.

2010-11-19T23:19:00.004+08:00

End of my last paper, end of the Australian Matriculation course. A new starting and beginning of my gap year? Have no idea where to further my studies. Gonna slow down my pace and have a real thought of it. Being too stressed out by many things throughout the year. Apparently lost myself. Feeling so down and empty, and so fake in my previous happy posts. I am not happy as I feel like I've lost something big and important, all of a sudden.

I'm gonna miss this big bunch of AWESOME people real much.

bestfriend.

2010-11-17T13:00:00.004+08:00

I should feel glad to have a best friend of opposite sex. Regardless of the feelings exist, I think I should stop hoping as both of us just don't see how can we be together again. Remaining what we are is the best thing we can do for each other. Neither do I like to publicize our things. So, lets just keep a low profile. Just the secret of two of us, two good friends. I will try my best to stop liking you, you know I always do. Be there for me, please. You know I ain't that strong. Its really happy to have someone who knows you very well as your best friend. Thank you, my friend. (:

crap.

2010-11-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

THIS IS CRAP. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. GIVING UP

s club 7

2010-11-06T15:22:00.003+08:00

I never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where love takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

girly girly ws.

2010-11-05T23:06:00.001+08:00

Very sorry to say that, Weng Shen is actually a girl.

HA HA HA HA HA :p

when love has faded.

2010-10-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

Aww I miss this! :(

xoxo

2010-10-31T15:10:00.004+08:00

Final exam starts off tomorrow. Physics paper the first, Good luck peeps! Kay kay, I love studying. Shall move my butt and fingers away from my lappy and couch. Been too relaxing all this while. Jiayous and all the best to everyone who sits for exams (Y)
*with loves and hugss xoxo

(:

2010-10-30T20:40:00.007+08:00

End of Ausmat, start of something new! (Y)

These are my awesome friends I met this year.

No offence for the descriptions people (:

The Boys.

Starting from left:

Hao Rong, Terence, Hong Chuen, Jia Jie, Ghanesh, Weng Shen,

Sze Ming, Kok Liang, Jiajie Yeow, Kang Yi & Cheng

Cheng: My Accounts, Econs & Computer Science partner. The one who always sit with me during these lessons. He's smart and he enjoys making fun of me very much. I mean, in a good way. Not regretting meeting him, he's awesome. He's very mature and caring I'd say. Not going to forget the way you kacau me, especially your "what so funny?" (:

Kok Liang: The first guy that I get close with when Ausmat just started. He's cute and he doesn't look like a college student. He steps on the floor with his huge and heavy shoes whenever he laughs. He's nice and sweet. Ohya, he's from the cleaner sec school. No offence Hahaha (:

Sze Ming: The most perasan people who always call himself handsome. He never failed to make all of us laugh with his disgusting voice and overload self-confidence. Ms Shereen loves him the most. Acknowledge himself as my "Big Brother" and even call my parents daddy mummy. He's really not handsome, just another funny kaki. He eats alot, can fight with me already. Hahaha. (:

Weng Shen: My greeniee cat in Ausmat. Used to be super quiet and make no sound when he talks. But getting naughtier and naughtier. Loves to tsktsk me, kick my legs, steps on my feet, hit my head with anything on his hand. The macho boy in Ausmat, but now 6 packs have became 1. Hahaha tuitioned with him during form 4 but he can't rememeber me. Garr. Talked the most during debate and speech, only. He loves me Hahaha (:

Ghanesh: My love. The most handsome indian I've ever seen. Super stylish with his good sense of fashion. Oops, is his mum's. Haha talk and fit guy but getting flabbier and fatter. Shared most of his things with me before he got himself a girlfriend. Zhong se qing you eh. Haha stay handsome, gonna miss you (:

Jia Jie Woo: My primary classmate. Did not know we can actually meet again in college, be in the same course somemore. He's my sister. He knows most of my things and I know his too. He doesn't like to open his mouth when he talks and Ms Vivien loves him. Hahaha open your mouth ya? He's a responsible one, both in Ausmat and SA. He's a smartie who can score super well in subjects like Maths, Phy, Chem and CSC. Might be going into the same U as him, Hahaha don't stalk me please. Good luck sista! (:

Hong Chuen: The one I used to HOI at him everytime I see him. Can barely hear what he says due to his super low voice frequency Hahaha. My primary schoolmate but we don't even remember seeing each other before. Never mind la, now we know already Haha (:

Kang Yi: My bestest friend. No need further elaboration I guess. I love him (:

The Girls.

Starting from left:

Mindee, Solhah, Me, Cheryl, Yubei, Juliette

Mindee: The one who shared most of my secrets. She looks prettiest when she eats burger. She can laugh very loud, but never as loud as me. She is super pretty, but too bad she's too hiao. Hahaha. Loves texting and sharing things with her. Most importantly, she loves me! (:

Solhah: My Chinlayu friend. She looks exactly like a pure Chinese. She hates me when she first saw me. Hahaha i look zhuai eh? Miss the time we went KL together. Spent large sum of $$ on food, but worth it right. Stay happy girl, don't think too much. Life isn't that complicated. You look prettier with a smile on your face. By the way, I'm gonna marry your bro right? Hahaha. (:

Cheryl: She's the one who introduced me during the first EALD class. She looks awesome with her hair down. She's nice and caring. She's one of the faithful friend I met I'd say. Thanks for the pressie cheryl. Still keep it nicely with me. All the best to you. Jiayous with your erhem. Be happy kays. (:

Yubei: Can barely hear what she says when she talk while she laugh. Super thin girl who can "consumer" alot. Her laughter is the most special one in Ausmat. Hahaha Always go around places to eat and shop. One of the convent girl in Ausmat. (:

Juliette: My convent laopo. Get upset very easily. Be strong ya girl. Cute and loves to take pictures. Nice pictures anyway. Take care alright. (:

Jiayous people. All the best (Y)

final.

2010-10-30T12:00:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of Ausmat. Sadness and happiness hung over the faces of everyone. Mixed feelings I'd say. Having our last Computer Science class with our beloved Ms Shereen. Took pictures with most of the lecturers on each of the last class. Gonna miss everyone so much. Exams are stressing out us but never give up, people. Must dress nicely and put a smile on your faces on our completion ceremony. Jiayous. (:

Although Ausmat is the toughest course among the Pre-Us, I enjoyed very much in this course. I always hate college, but I really do feel very much sad when it comes to an end. Thank you guys, you are awesome! Friends from every corner of Malaysia, gathered and studied together. Shared happiness, laughed together, cried together, burped together and even gossip together! All the best to you guys. I will definitely miss every single moment we spend together throughout the whole year. (:

Thank you Student Ambassadors especially Raymond. Thanks for your cares and thanks for being there for every of us. Gonna miss the times where all the SAs slept together in SSD, bathed in the toilet with cockroach running here and there, danced ChocoLatte and Nobody on stage, watched 17Again in MPH, coordinated and play games with the campus, spent months and days for the preparation of Annual Ball, wore Batik together, gossip together, picnic together and so much more. You guys made my college life an interesting and unforgettable one! By the way, I will be back next year, Freshie's Night! :p

Thanks to the Alevels, both January and March. Never regret of meeting you guys, even though some are from the same sec school as I. Met lots of new friends - Sinrei, Tamama, Kaka, KS, Wei zeik, Bee. (: Not forgetting the awesome convent girls - Baa, Qingwei, Michelle, Woonyen, Kekjin, Irene. Goodluck to you guys. Loves.

Thank you Kang Yi. Hope you like the pressie I made for you. They're actually farewell gifts for you. Handle them with extra care alright? Gonna miss you real real much. Thanks for your hugs and pictures yesterday. Thanks for the memories. Thanks for everything you've done for me throughout this year. You're the most awesome people I've ever met. Stay awesome. Have faith. Study hard. I'll always be there for you. Jiayous, Love you (:

buck up.

2010-10-21T23:17:00.012+08:00

BE STRONG WANQING.
DON'T GIVE UP.
HAVE FAITH IN ONLY MYSELF.

FINAL EXAM IS COMING REAL SOON.
PLEASE STOP DISTRACTING ME.
STOP STRESSING ME ANYMORE.
HAVE A LITTLE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF.
LIVE MY OWN LIFE.

BUCK UP WANQING.
I AM JUST LOST SOMEWHERE OUT THERE.
GONNA FIND MYSELF BACK.
I CAN'T BE EMO.
NOTHINGS GONNA BEAT ME DOWN.
I'VE COME SO FAR, THIS IS NOT THE END YET.
THERE'S STILL A LONG WAY FOR ME TO GO.
NEVER EVER EVER LOSE MY FAITH.
I AM A STRONG GIRL.
I AM AWESOME.

Friends (L)

2010-10-10T23:16:00.001+08:00

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
That's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
You can count on me cause I can count on you

If tou toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song
beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will
remind you

Ohh
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
you can count on me cos' I can count on you

6.10.10

2010-10-06T11:07:00.006+08:00

Mock test is finally over. Currently having the so-called study break at home. What's done is done. Am very disappointed with myself, my studies and my relationships w/ people. I think Imma failure in these. :/ Did quite well for first four papers and I'm so gonna flunk my Accounting & Finance paper.

Well, there's only one month left. Ausmat course is going to end real soon. Time flies and most of us did not even realize it.

In life, we can't get ourselves back to the past and what we can do is make our life better in our future. Come to think of it, who will we have in our future. Maybe a friend? A bestfriend? A boyfriend/girlfriend? Or you alone. Even so, you should always be faithful to your own self. Because nobody knows you more than yourself do. Trust, I do trust myself. And I know even sometimes when I don't, my family still does. I'm glad to have them. They would never forced me to do anything I do not like in my studies. I planned for my own future, I chose the course to take, I chose where to study, I chose the subjects to take, everything by my own. Why, because they trust me. They want me to decide for my own future, and with no regrets.

No doubt, I met someone really important in this year. We were once couple but sadly we didn't make it till the end. It ended real fast, this relationship only lasted for two months. I do respect his choice of leaving me, but indeed it hurts. But thank god and thanks to him, we managed to be friend again. He was happy that I'm back to his life and so am I. Everything went smoothly, just like the time when we were not couple. We fight, we argue and we get mad. Anyway, we can always easily get back together again. Ironically, we know each other so much better than before, even better than we were an item. We promised to tell each other everything and always be there for each other. But, promises broke. Things can never be the same and so do us. I could never bother him much anymore, he's so stressed out. Due to his studies, his future, his parents' expectations and etc. I tried to be more understanding. But I've gave up. People changed, and I can feel that he doesn't need me anymore. There is so much I want to say to him, but because I know him too well, I know what his replies will be. So I would rather keep it to myself, just like how he does all these times. But, I will still keep my promises, and I wonder if he remember any of them. Anyway, I will still treat him as my friend. It's always hard but I'll still try. For his sake and for us. I seemed to be dwelling over all these things but why, just because I care. He doesn't have faith in us anymore, even for the future. 10 years? Hopefully he'll know how much I was there for him, when I'm gone. The course has not end but we seem to be already parted.. He's always the best for me, my pigbunny. This is definitely the first time where I could get to know someone so well, and being known by him so well too. Aww, 6th - fifth month anni.

Maybe sometimes, we just not necessarily need a somebody to be there for us, but our own selves. Be strong! Promise to myself, that I won't say sorry because I know I did nothing wrong. Promise to myself, and telling myself, that I won't be afraid to fall. Promise to myself, that I will be true to myself, and I won't change for anyone. I am me. Take me as I am, or watch me as I go.

Parting? If people are meant to be, they will somehow get back together again someday, even after they've parted. Expect nothing. Life is unpredictable.

♥

2010-09-28T19:55:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Darling Cheryl Ting Cher Yuke! ♥

If only.

2010-09-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

If only i were given a chance..

I wouldn't let all these to be happened. I wouldn't had accept it at first, knowing it's going to be so hurt. And I wouldn't let you go so easily.

If you will still do what you believed that you'll, then how long am i going to wait till you don't. I've no idea what to do and how to face you, or even treat you as my bestest friend. I've no good and close friend of opposite sex. I don't know what way should I treated you like. I've told you what's in my mind, but still I failed to convince and change your way of thinking. Maybe we're just not meant to be.

I don't understand. I guess I could never figured out what and why did you think in that way. It just shows how much you don't trust yourself, and us. You've once lost the faith in us and I thought being close with you again can helps you to gain the faith back. But again and again, I failed. You can and will never hurt me if you could just stop thinking and believing that you will. We can always in a simple yet loving relationship. There will be no pains and no fights. What I want is just the sweet babyy. You might say we are now, but it's not going to be the same. It's still different, I want someone that can always holds my hands, let me to lean on when I'm scared, allow me to sleep in his arms at anywhere, anytime. You ain't. Now what we can do for each other are just be there, remain as friend, share each other's happiness and sadness, and nothing else. We can still do this even if we're in a relationship, right..

You told me even if we get together now, you will still break up with me when you leave. Why, I don't even dare to ask. 'Cause no matter what I said, you will still do and I'm still confused. Why can't we hold on strong to our relationship, despite of the time, the distance and all barriers. You can never understand how much I want us to be much more than, friends. I might not be able to leave with you, but I can still be there, support you in everything you do. The feelings ain't going to change, if you let me to. I trust you, I believe you won't change your feelings towards me, I believe you won't bear to hurt me, but you never do believe in yourself. Yet instead, you're actually allowing yourself to change and hurt me. Am i so not worth your care, your trust and your.. love?

If only love always remains...

非常有深度的24句电影台词

2010-09-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

1.一个人总要走陌生的路，看陌生的风景，听陌生的歌，然后在某个不经意的瞬间，你会发现，原本是费尽心机想要忘记的事情真的就那么忘记了。

One is always on a strange road, watching strange scenery and listening to strange music. Then one day, you will find that the things you try hard to forget are already gone.

2.幸福，不是长生不老，不是大鱼大肉，不是权倾朝野。幸福是每一个微小的生活愿望达成。当你想吃的时候有得吃，想被爱的时候有人来爱你。

Happiness is not about being immortal nor having food or rights in one's hand. It’s about having each tiny wish come true, or having something to eat when you are hungry or having someone's love when you need love.

3.爱情是灯，友情是影子，当灯灭了，你会发现你的周围都是影子。朋友，是在最后可以给你力量的人。

Love is a lamp, while friendship is the shadow. When the lamp is off,you will find the shadow everywhere. Friend is who can give you strength at last.

4.我爱你不是因为你是谁，而是我在你面前可以是谁。

I love you not for who you are, but for who I am with you.

5.爱情，要么让人成熟，要么让人堕落。

Love makes man grow up or sink down.

6.举得起放得下的叫举重，举得起放不下的叫负重。可惜，大多数人的爱情，都是负重的。

If you can hold something up and put it down, it is called weight-lifting; if you can hold something up but can never put it down,it's called burden-bearing. Pitifully, most of people are bearing heavy burdens when they are in love.

7．我们每个人都生活在各自的过去中，人们会用一分钟的时间去认识一个人，用一小时的时间去喜欢一个人，再用一天的时间去爱上一个人，到最后呢，却要用一辈子的时间去忘记一个人。

We all live in the past. We take a minute to know someone, one hour to like someone, and one day to love someone, but the whole life to forget someone.

8．一个人一生可以爱上很多的人，等你获得真正属于你的幸福之后，你就会明白一起的伤痛其实是一种财富，它让你学会更好地去把握和珍惜你爱的人。

One may fall in love with many people during the lifetime. When youfinally get your own happiness, you will understand the previoussadness is kind of treasure, which makes you better to hold and cherish the people you love.

9．年轻的时候会想要谈很多次恋爱，但是随着年龄的增长，终于领悟到爱一个人，就算用一辈子的时间，还是会嫌不够。慢慢地去了解这个人，体谅这个人，直到爱上为止，是需要有非常宽大的胸襟才行。

When you are young, you may want several love experiences. But as time goes on, you will realize that if you really love someone, the whole life will not be enough. You need time to know, to forgive and to love.All this needs a very big mind.

10．当明天变成了今天成为了昨天，最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天，我们突然发现自己在不知不觉中已被时间推着向前走，这不是静止火车里，与相邻列车交错时，仿佛自己在前进的错觉，而是我们真实的在成长，在这件事里成了另一个自己。

When tomorrow turns in today, yesterday, and someday that no more important in your memory, we suddenly realize that we r pushed forward by time. This is not a train in still in which you may feel forward when another train goes by. It is the truth that we've all grown up.And we become different.

11．离开我就别安慰我，要知道每一次缝补也会遭遇穿刺的痛。

If you leave me, please don't comfort me because each sewing has to meet stinging pain.

12．曾经拥有的，不要忘记。不能得到的，更要珍惜。属于自己的，不要放弃。已经失去的，留作回忆。

Don’t forget the things you once you owned. Treasure the things you can’t get. Don't give up the things that belong to you and keep those lost things in memory.

13．我喜欢并习惯了对变化的东西保持着距离，这样才会知道什么是最不会被时间抛弃的准则。比如爱一个人，充满变数，我于是后退一步，静静的看着，直到看见真诚的感情。

I love and am used to keeping a distance with those changed things.Only in this way can I know what will not be abandoned by time. For example, when you love someone, changes are all around. Then I step backward and watching it silently, then I see the true feelings.

14．男人的爱是俯视而生，而女人的爱是仰视而生。如果爱情像座山，那么男人越往上走可以俯视的女人就越多，而女人越往上走可以仰视的男人就越少。

Men love from overlooking while women love from looking up. If love is a mountain, then if men go up, more women they will see while women will see fewer men.

15．好的爱情是你通过一个人看到整个世界，坏的爱情是你为了一个人舍弃世界。

Good love makes you see the whole world from one person while bad love makes you abandon the whole world for one person.

16．在自己面前，应该一直留有一个地方，独自留在那里。然后去爱。不知道是什么，不知道是谁，不知道如何去爱，也不知道可以爱多久。只是等待一次爱情，也许永远都没有人。可是，这种等待，就是爱情本身。

We shall always save a place for ourselves, only for ourselves. And then begin to love. Have no idea of what it is, who he is, how to love or how long it will be. Just wait for one love. Maybe no one will come out, but this kind of waiting is the love itself.

17．有谁不曾为那暗恋而痛苦？我们总以为那份痴情很重，很重，是世上最重的重量。有一天，暮然回首，我们才发现，它一直都是很轻，很轻的。我们以为爱的很深，很深，来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅，很浅。最深和最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。

Is there anyone who hasn't suffered for the secret love? We always think that love is very heavy, heavy and could be the heaviest thing in the world. But one day, when you look back, you suddenly realize that it's always light, light. We all thought love was very deep, but in fact it's very thin. The deepest and heaviest love must grow up with the time.

18．在这个世界上，只有真正快乐的男人，才能带给女人真正的快乐。

In this world, only those men who really feel happy can give women happiness

19．女人如果不性感，就要感性；如果没有感性，就要理性；如果没有理性，就要有自知之明；如果连这个都没有了，她只有不幸。

If a woman is not sexy, she needs emotion; if she is not emotional, she needs reason; if she is not reasonable, she has to know herself clearly. coz only she has is misfortune.

20．一段不被接受的爱情，需要的不是伤心，而是时间，一段可以用来遗忘的时间。一颗被深深伤了的心，需要的不是同情，而是明白。

An unacceptable love needs no sorrow but time- sometime for forgetting.A badly-hurt heart needs no sympathy but understanding.

21．我知道这世上有人在等我，尽管我不知道我在等谁。但是因为这样，我每天都非常快乐。

I know someone in the world is waiting for me, although I've no idea of who he is. But I feel happy every day for this.

22．一生至少该有一次，为了某个人而忘了自己，不求有结果，不求同行，不求曾经拥有，甚至不求你爱我。只求在我最美的年华里，遇到你。

In your life, there will at least one time that you forget yourself for someone, asking for no result, no company, no ownership nor love. Just sk for meeting you in my most beautiful years.

23．我不觉得人的心智成熟是越来越宽容涵盖，什么都可以接受。相反，我觉得那应该是一个逐渐剔除的过程，知道自己最重要的是什么，知道不重要的东西是什么。而后，做一个纯简的人。

I don't think that when people grow up, they will become more broad-minded and can accept everything. Conversely, I think it's aselecting process, knowing what's the most important and what's the least. And then be a simple man.

24．当你的心真的在痛，眼泪快要流下来的时候，那就赶快抬头看看，这片曾经属于我们的天空；当天依旧是那么的广阔，云依旧那么的潇洒，那就不应该哭，因为我的离去，并没有带走你的世界。

When you feel hurt and your tears are gonna to drop. Please look up and have a look at the sky once belongs to us. If the sky is still vast , clouds are still clear, you shall not cry because my leave doesn't take away the world that belongs to you.

=B

2010-09-04T16:09:00.003+08:00

Awesome picnic and Jiajie's birthday celebration with Ausmatians! (Y)

:X

2010-08-18T18:34:00.002+08:00

It's not that I want to be jealous, but the way you talk to the girls, i really don't like it. I hate the feelings that I'm going to lose you again. I know you don't like it, but i just can't help myself. Would you just try not to be so close to them, for my sake? I want to be the closest one to you. Sigh. :/

"I love being single more than I love being in love,
cause I am always there whenever I need me."

:B

2010-08-15T11:58:00.002+08:00

Weekend to-do list
1. Rabbit-proof Fence journal
2. Study for Com Science Test
3. EALD in-class assignment

2 over 14 for Accounts test, I suck. (N)
25 over 26 for CSC practical, well not bad. (Y)

he's back.

2010-08-15T00:45:00.011+08:00

it's almost 1am now. am still awake and feel a lil bit sleepy. i did not sleep well last time, got up umpteen times during the night. mr.alan's mail scared me, the cats scared me and blackout in my house. how unlucky. text him at around 6am in the morning, 'cause i was scared and had a short nightmare. got his reply at 9am but did not reply as i woke up at 1230pm, hehh. stupid cats, stop haunting me would you. :'(

well, feeling good these few days. to be exact, since the day when you're back into my life. feel really happy having you again, talking to you again and be close to you again. thanks for taking the first step to talk to me. sorry that i rejected you at first but surprisingly, the more i talked to you, the happier i am. i still can't let go out you, but i'll learn to hide my feelings. we found us back, and im really glad that i found the old you back. thank you very much, for never stop having me in your heart. you were always in my heart as well, and nobody is able to replace you, never ever. even though i can't have you as my boy, but i will always treat you as one. i would not mind, because deep in my heart, i love you and i'm willing to do anything that can makes you happy, including hiding my feelings towards you. i know you don't like it when i say those words to you, i won't anymore. you told me you can't have this relationship anymore, and i won't force you. but there's one thing i can promise you, i will always be there for you. no matter as your girlfriend or just a normal friend, when you need me, just give me a call. i know you like the way we are now, i like it too but sometimes i just can't stop myself from wanting much more than this. i want you badly but i know if i force you, none of us will be happy. thanks to you, we both smile again. i really do love you, that is why i'm letting you go. i swear i won't say these things to you anymore, i want you to be happy, i really do. we really do need each other in our lives. i really hope that this time you can keep all your promises. you're really back this time, not as my boyfriend but as my special one, even more special than a boyfriend, my one and only someone. we are so much closer than we were, i need you in my life. you're really the special one for me and for you, i am, as well.

piggy, i'm sorry that i keep getting mad at you. i do it because i really care bout you. sorry but i can't tell you all these. i think i just care too much. well, i think i fell in love with you, again. sorry, but i will stop. i would not want to lose you again. :'(

piglet sayang piggy x infinity ♥

screams went unheard.

2010-08-14T23:21:00.001+08:00

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

I against abortion.

(oo)

2010-08-14T16:36:00.001+08:00

Piggy, I'm happy that you're back. (:

Monash trip. (N)

2010-08-07T18:42:00.004+08:00

Thursday followed A-levels for steamboat and then stayed over at Sweetie Baa's house. Bought the so-called horror movie, called "Voice" and fell asleep while watching it. Can imagine how sucks is that movie already I guess. Slept for around 35 minutes and got myself prepared for the Monash trip. We waited for buses for about 1 hour. Sat with Bryan in the bus and slept throughout the way to KL. Science presentation, science talk can just killed me. Very not related and enjoyed laughing @ the whatever Dr. Breakfast was okay. Monash workshop sucks to the core. Journalism - hello, we learn economics and accounting. Fall asleep during the workshop. Dim light with air-con on, how can people not falling asleep. Got 1/20 correct for the quiz. Smart ass. Next, lunch at Sun-U. Got so disappointed with Sun-U environment, like the typical kilang where all the PATI work at. EW. But luckily the workshop was awesome. Ausmat group won the first prize and our marks was far more higher compared to other groups. The talk about business was boring, played Solhah's iPhone and camera to keep myself awake. Took a pic @ Sun-U, my ugliest photo ever. Heading off to Sunway Pyramid, like finally. Shopped with Sweetie Baa, Honey Manie and Dear Mien. Met up with my ex Huihui. She became darker and much more darker than me, Yay. She bought us singlets and cheese cake. EW, CHEESE cake. Subway as dinner, it taste yucks. Sat with Ziming as Bryan didn't follow us back. Slept throughout the way back to JB. Woken up by Ziming's voice and tried to sleep back but failed. The first bus reached sunway college and followed Baa's car back to her house with Woonyen and Raymond. Enjoyed reading horoscope thingy with Baa and Woonyen. I've no shuang chong xing ge, Baa's not ai chui xu and Woonyen's not kan qi lai hen yan su. Realised that me and Baa have the same hobby - collecting clothes label and stamps! We're fated to be the bestest besties. (L)

Met him quite a few times in KL. Imagined he was sitting beside me in the bus, how wonderful is that. I've no idea what to do. Still cannot face him, still don't dare to talk to him, still don't dare to listen to his voice, still don't dare to see him. Thursday was officially the first month we're apart. Friday was our 3 months anni. I prefer Friday's. I miss him, still. Why am i getting weaker and weaker. I doubt if I be strong again. I couldn't sleep well, since the day you left me. Thoughts of you were overwhelming my head. They say that time heals all wounds but all it’s done so far is give me more time to think about how much I miss you. I miss calling you "bii".. :'(

:(

2010-08-03T21:20:00.001+08:00

不要再动摇我了可以吗.

:'(

2010-07-28T20:56:00.005+08:00

Just give me a hug and tell me that you love me, tell me that you need me. Will you? I scared I won't be able to hold on any longer.

tky.

2010-07-27T01:51:00.001+08:00

will you be back? i miss you baby.

disappointment

2010-07-24T17:49:00.004+08:00

Cheryl asked and said,

"do you still want to hold on or move on? that's the question you have to answer yourself."

I replied, "i want to hold on."

Sorry, i just can't let go of him.
I can never give up on kang yi; I believe miracles happen everyday.

iloveky

2010-07-21T23:26:00.006+08:00

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you,
it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and
when I realize how much I love you,
I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.
I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing,
but I can't help it, cause I'm in love with you.
Sometimes I think I've gotten over you,
but when I see you smile I suddenly realize I'm just pretending I'm over you
to ease the pain of knowing that you will never be mine again.
Missing you isn't the hard part,
knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.

how can you moved on so fast,
you left me all alone here.

IMY

2010-07-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

TAN KANG YI, I MISS YOU ! :'(((

sorry.

2010-07-18T19:37:00.003+08:00

Sorry darling. I promised not to think that i'm the mood spoiler. But I just can't. I feel really bad for causing all these problems. I didn't expect it to be happen as well. I'm real sorry and it's me, I am the one making you all to be no longer close. Because of me, you all and KY are no longer close. Because of my presence, you all didn't talk as much as you guys used to be. I am sorry I just can't get over this. It's been two weeks yet I still don't have the courage to talk to him. It's all my fault. I hate myself for being like this as well. But I can't move on. I think without my presence, everything will back to how it used to be, right. Yes, definitely yes. Sorry people.

breakup hurts.

2010-07-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

It's hard when you know you shouldn't hold on,

and yet you're too in love to let go.

:(

2010-07-13T23:27:00.001+08:00

I am a strong girl. But when people know that you are strong, they think it is okay to hurt you, over and over again. Yes, I'm hurt. :(

:'(

2010-07-07T16:22:00.003+08:00

"I can't stay strong. Sorry, I lied to you. I lied to myself. . . 'cause it's killing me inside."

I dare not to accept any relationship before you. But it was your promises that convinced me to accept you. Promises are meant to be broken. Things changed completely different ever after the 2-weeks holidays.

Sorry people. I can't stop blaming myself. It's my fault for not keeping him by my side. It was me who always get mad at him, just because I cared. It's my fault for not understand you well. It was me who thought that you're mine. I bet it never was and never will be. I just can't forgive myself.

You used to be the one who shared my happiness. Whenever I scored a high mark in my test, I shared with you and you will always say, "my baby so smart." But now, even when I score well in my EE, there is nobody there to share with. You comfort me whenever I'm down and I feel really glad to have you as my boy. Your words will never fail to make me smile. I appreciate it a lot. But appreciation does not helps. It was me who making you feel unloved and stressed. I know I've been a bad girlfriend but I just don't know the right way to be one's girl. I mad at you because I care, I don't mad at you because I try to be an understanding one. But no matter what I did, you still left me. All alone, living by my own.

Ever since you told me that you do not like me anymore, I feel real hurt. I could not accept the fact. I'm sorry for being weak. I lied to everyone, asking 'em not to worry about me and I'll be fine. But in fact, I am not. I'm real hurt this time. I lie to myself, convincing myself that you still like me. Even though the fact is your feelings towards me had faded away. That's the only thing that can keeps me strong and moves on. I'm sorry for doing so, but if I don't, I am lost. You were there to celebrate my birthday, you were there to hold my hands, you were there to give me a hug when I am sad, you were there to kiss me, you were there... Now you're gone.

My heart aches whenever my family asks about you. I've no idea what to tell. They like you so much and I can't bear to let 'em know. Their impressions on you were good and I don't wish to hurt them. My dad asked, "you didn't sleep well is it? why did you look so haggard..?" Seriously, I don't know what to answer. I don't wanna make anyone worry but I just can't bear it anymore. I tried to let go, but no matter how hard did I try, I just can't.

I hate for being your friend, only. Watching you in class actually makes me dying. I bear my tears. I know I am such a failure. I can't even let go. I cry when I see you in class, I cry when I see you walk pass by me, I cry when I see your smile, I cry when I don't even have the courage to move on, I cry when you try to avoid me. And I cry when I know you're no longer my baby. I know I should not be crying over this. But I am a girl, I am weak. I am no longer as strong as I used to be. I can't even sleep well. I dare not to delete all the messages you sent as well as those sweet pictures we took together. I know once I deleted it, it can never comes back. Just like you. That's why I can't and I don't want to give up. But the longer time I hold on, the more hurt I'll be.

Do you know why I asked you to come over my house last saturday. Because I know you're leaving me. I asked for the last hug, the last kiss. And the very last "baby" from you. Sorry for crying for the whole day. I just can't bear my tears when I look at you. I look at you and I know you're leaving me soon. How can I smile. I touched your hair, your head and your face. I used to tell everyone, "hey, this is my boy." when I do these 3 things. You hugged me when you saw me crying. I'm confused. I don't know whether you're feeling pitiful of me or you also can't bear to let me go. "Baby, 我舍不得你." - that's the last word I said to you. I begged for you to stay but you've rejected me. Upon your rejection, I know everything has changed, including you. People convinced me that you've your own reasons and so you've to sacrifice me. I don't mind if you do so. But, what actually matters is you told me you don't like me anymore. That's really hurt.. I feel like dying.

It's your first love and I'm the one ruining everything. What can I do..

Can I just die.

(K)

2010-07-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

I miss my baby boy. :'(

@Facebook

2010-07-01T16:45:00.001+08:00

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Nice one! Thumbs up (Y)

JY.

2010-06-29T22:41:00.001+08:00

Be strong, wanqing! (:

♥

2010-06-27T01:15:00.007+08:00

YESSSS, I LOVE MY BABY KY.

1 to 10.

2010-06-26T21:13:00.002+08:00

The most selfish 1 letter word - I - avoid it.

The most satisfying 2 letter word - We - use it.

The most poisonous 3 letter word - Ego - kill it.

The most used 4 letter word - Love - value it.

The most pleasing 5 letter word - Smile - keep it.

The fastest spreading 6 letter word - Rumour - ignore it.

The hardest working 7 letter word - Success - achieve it.

The most enviable 8 letter word - Jealousy - distance it.

The most powerful 9 letter word - Knowledge - acquire it.

The most essential 10 letter word - Confidence - trust it.

:)

2010-06-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Eleven Hints for Life

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

(:

2010-06-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

17 most important things to remember in life

1. Never give up on anybody; miracles happen everyday.

2.Be brave even if your not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.

3. Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.

4. Learn to listen. Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.

5. Never deprive someone of hope, it might be all they have.

6. Strive for excellence, not perfection.

7. Don't waste time grieving over past mistakes. Learn from them and move on.

8. When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.

9. Never cut what can be untied.

10. Don't expect life to be fair.

11. Remember:Success comes to the one that acts first.

12. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

13. Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a grateful heart and be quick to acknowledge those who help you.

14. Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.

15. Laugh a lot.A good sense of humor cures almost all of life's ills.

16. Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.

17. Watch for big problems. They disguise big opportunities.

Life.

2010-06-26T21:06:00.003+08:00

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten."
So God agreed.

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said, "Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed.

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty."
And God agreed again.

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?"

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

...

2010-06-22T15:25:00.001+08:00

I DON'T LIKE HOLIDAYS.

semester break.

2010-06-20T01:30:00.004+08:00

Ohh great, the long-awaited semester break is finally here. Okayy, I'm real bored. Thought semester break is going to be a relaxing one. But I received a couple of assignments which have to be submitted after the break. Nahh, ruin my holiday mood. Plan not to go anywhere far during holidays, have to work real hard and study more.

Some of my lecturers returned back our EE papers. Frankly speaking, I did real real bad in my EE. Especially EALD and Maths. I would had get a higher mark for my EALD, she deducted my marks. I can't change my handwriting, what to do? Okayy, my maths sucks I admit it. My predicted ATAR is really low and I got kinda upset looking at my marks. Gonna aim for >=90, as what Mr.Alan asked. Congrats to my baby for getting the highest in Ausmat! (L)

2-weeks-holiday - I'm gonna miss you real much baby boy. Enjoy your holidays with your family and friends, alright. :)

Do keep your promises, we have a long way to go baby.

iloveyou

18th.

2010-06-13T13:51:00.010+08:00

Happy - 18th - Birthday - to - MEEEEEEEE! :D

I'm now a 18-year-old girl C:

A very BIG Thank Youuuu to all my friends who wished me :)

Special thanks to @Michelle Sit @Woonyen Ng @Lim Raymond
@Erictee Wei Seong @Jiajie Woo & @Jian Woon Cheng

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Thanks Baby@Tan Kang Yi for everything he did for me.
Each day, I love you more!
♥

(N)

2010-06-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

LIFE SUCKS.

:(

2010-05-31T23:16:00.005+08:00

OMG OMG OMFG.
I'm freaking worryyy about my EAL/D paper. (N)

I'm not going to flunk this paper.
I'm not going to flunk this paper.
I'm not going to flunk this paper.

I feel stress when I know I can never be as good as you. I had already try my best to be at the same level as you. But you're just way too smarter than I thought. I know I can't be as smart as you. Is that going to be a barrier in our r/s, I wonder.

...as far as the comparison between me and you is existed and concerned.

♥

2010-05-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

First day of EE has already killed me. Never mind, I will work much more harder for next few papers. Jiayous (:

This coming Sunday and next Sunday! ♥
- the question is, which is more important? Baby said 13th. (:

3 weeks.

2010-05-29T17:58:00.003+08:00

EE is coming real soon, 31st of May 2010. Am still enjoying and relaxing all day. Gotta really start my revision or else I will just flunk my subjects. I won't let my parents and my baby down. Have to work really hard to prove to 'em that our relationship will never affect our studies. (:

Enjoyed spending time with my Baby. We spent 1 whole day together, and we spent the sweetest 3 hours (K). Aww, I feel really good having you around me. Love your hugs (: Applied mask for Baby on friday. He looked super duper cute with the "i-can't-smile" expression. I'm so in love with you~

I wonder what will happen to us when Ausmat syllabus is finished. I don't want to think about it as we both know we were as one and had the greatest moments together. I wanted to be your first and last baby. Thanks for everything bii, am really glad for having you as my boy.

iloveyou (L).

:S

2010-05-23T19:01:00.001+08:00

What kind of mood am I supposed to have? Hmm.

=(

2010-05-18T19:02:00.005+08:00

I cannot score for my accounts and moral papers. I am sorry baby. I promised you to do well in my tests yet I got a bad result. :'(

i hope you know.

2010-05-15T21:38:00.006+08:00

Well, I really have a packed schedule. Tonnes of tests, assignments and quizes are driving me insane. Am really exhausted these few days. It has been 9 days since we became a couple. Am really appreciated for everything he did, the good things. Yes I like him :)

Baby stayed @my house from Monday till Wednesday. We planned to study together but the plan was epic failed. We spent great time together - facebooking, chatting and etc. Aww, I am just so in love with him. 6 more months left :'(

Watched Ip Man 2 @jusco tebrau city w/ Baby, Manie and Mien on Thursday. Overall the show was awesome but I'd prefer the Ip Man 1. Enjoyed very much watching movie w/ my baby. I love lying in his arms. That's just so warm and sweet :)

Badminton w/ Aliens, Ausmatians and A-lians this morning. Having fun playing around w/ them. Baby planned to stay @my house today but Ph is back from KL. No more room for him to sleep. So the plan was canceled. Sobs.

Oh baby I wish you were here.

love story.

2010-05-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

Kang Yi ♥ Wanqing

baby.

2010-05-09T21:55:00.003+08:00

Thanks for telling me your feelings baby. It's not your fault so stop put the blame on yourself okay. I am confused w/ my feeling too. Since you've promised not to leave me and I chose to trust you. I can give you as much time as possible. Sort your feelings first and tell me when you're ready. You know I'll be there for you. I've faith in you (L)

♥

2010-05-07T18:13:00.008+08:00

The new beginning - 6th May 2010 ♥

Thank you KY
♥

"I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms
all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know,
you're the one that I like and love, and I can't let you go."

tata.

2010-04-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

Yes, am not going to update my blog. Currently very busy w/ college life. Will revive my blog as soon as i've any free time. Ciao~ =)

:'(

2010-04-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

you ruined my good mood !
:'(

imissher.

2010-04-13T19:35:00.004+08:00

Officially, semester break has started. I decided to go to college everyday as I've nothing better to do at home, except to sleep. Went to Loud Speaker yesterday and today w/ Ausmat and ALE peeps. Enjoyed a lot of fun w/ them. I love them~

I was told about the news yesterday from Baa. And she was being told by Nash. My tear dropped on my keyboard when I saw those words typed by Baa. I feel so bad and I can actually feel my heart aching. I promised Baa not to tell anyone about this. Even when the someone asked about this, I still kept my mouth shut. I am sorry. I feel like hugging her right now. I feel that I'm just a so-called best friend of hers where I don't know even know what has happened to her and how can she managed to pass through that saddest moment. I could not let her know that I've already knew about this. I would not want to remind her about anything. I hope she can still leads her life good and make it a meaningful one.

I am sorry for not being there for you. Please forgive me, as I did not even make myself a good friend of yours. I feel really bad because I know I can do nothing for you. I blamed myself for being so stupid. But still, I love you.

May God bless you.

sad face.

2010-04-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

I feel like someone is picking on me. And it's really stink.

2010-04-10T11:28:00.002+08:00

Please faster arrange the time and day, I am not as free as you thought I am. I have to prepare everything. I want it to be perfect, alright. Please take this very seriously.

Went for driving lesson and was not in a good mood. Parking was perfect but bukit sucks. Engine mati for about 5 times. I hate driving and I miss college :'(
Tonnes of works and assignments are suffocating me. Never mind, I know I still able to finish all by myself. Sometimes I really feel like saying it out to 'em but I know people will think that I am selfish. What to do? I would not want to lose my friends because of this teeny-weeny matter.

Our outing manager - Mr. TKY suggested to go Loud Speaker yesterday. A total of 13 people went. The boys can really dance. They played the song 'Down' for umpteen times. Girls can really shake but we're just too shy to do so. So yea, let the boys shake their asses off. Hahaha! Really enjoyed spending time with Ausmat and ALE peeps! (L)

Intended to go for swimming on thursday w/ Baa and her siblings. Plan failed as it was Zhi Yang's birthday and we went for dinner @Domino together. Mahjong and study @baa's house. Did not know we really managed to study together. Thought the boys will only making noise. Sorry I just stereotyped. Imitated the way of talking of Sotirious and EricTee. Hahahahahahaha didn't know I actually did it quite alike. ;)

I am so sad because Kluang trip is cancelled. *sob sob

(Y)

2010-04-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today was a Fairytale,
as well as yesterday. :)

:)

2010-04-07T22:11:00.004+08:00

I'm so happy everyday.
Because I'm healthy and strong.
Playing. Jumping. Here I go.
Scott's Emulsion helps me grow!
:DDD

help.

2010-04-04T22:55:00.004+08:00

I need a planner to write down my schedules. My time management sucks to the core.

* Tuition - I need to prepare the notes. I can't even confirm the date and time w/ him. Grr (!)
* Kluang or KL / Kluang and KL?
* Should i continue my Piano lesson? I somehow feel that I'm being left out by my friends.
* Music Club - People please come for Audition, whether you think you can sing or not. We need vocalist, drummer, guitarist, bass and keyboard. Please :(

I never felt so stressed than before.

pictures.

2010-04-04T01:38:00.010+08:00

Pictures do speak;

- - - - -

Ausmat '10

2010-04-02T17:06:00.008+08:00

I love Ausmat Jan '10. (L)

Ausmat sonata cast

Boys;
Tan Kang Yi - Gay(happy) & Glutton-est :D
Tan Weng Shen - Shy & "Quiet" :D
Cheng Jian Woon - Smart & Helpful :D
Lim Kok Liang - The Ko Liang / Liang Ko :D
Terence Tung - The "Beggar" :D
Thinesh Kumar - "Action~!" :D
Ghanesh - Mr.G aka the Hero :D
Wong Hong Chuen - The BANANA Tree :D
Woo Jia Jie - The Monkey :D
Ling Hao Rong - Honda City Vroom :D

Girls;
Loe Wan Qing - The Shortest :D
Cheryl Ting - She doesn't steal recipe (Plankton) :D
Wong Min Dee - Celebrity of Ausmat :D
Solhah - "Alah kau ni~" & The BANANA Girl :D
Wong Yubei - Always late for class :D
Tee Hui Mien - Her new english name: Maggie :D
Leo Kitt Huii - Manie loves Mini Cooker :D
Juliette Yong - Bearrrrr-lover :D
Isyapreet - The Tallest :D
Sindhu - Pretty & Cute girl :D
Samantha Tiang - Make-up Artist :D
Neo Mei Xian - "Shuai Ge" of Ausmat :D
Ng Sin Yee - Shy & Adorable :D
Toh Pei Tee - The "Princess" :D
Chua Jia Rong - Smartest Girl :D

a short one.

2010-04-01T19:23:00.007+08:00

Freshie Nite has just over and it was awesome! Awesome Ausmat won the first prize. Thanks guys for making my college life an awesome and meaningful one. I love you all (Y)

I wonder if I can manage to arrange my time for all these events;
(i) Tuition on Econs
(ii) Music Club meeting and events coming up
(iii) Topic tests
(iv) Assignments
(v) EE
I feel really stressed up and I think I've just tire myself out in recent weeks. I always wish to do more than my ability but I can't. College lessons are so packed up and I'm forced to use the computer 'everyday' in order to finish my works. Argh, I feel like crying. I'm so stressed (N)

I laugh w them, I joke w them, I play around w them, I chitchat w them and I share secret w them. I do the same everyday, even though sometimes when I'm in a foul mood. Know why? Because I love them; solhah, mindee, cheryl, yubei, juliette, manie & mien. (K)

I like Ms. Wong, she's so cute :))

Bowling was not fun 'cause I got the lowest mark :(

It's April Fool and I'm the fool.

meaningless.

2010-03-29T17:47:00.005+08:00

Life's been so busy w tonnes works and assignment. Pity the March intake people. Kinda looking forward to the Freshie Nite. It's gonna be fun, hopefully. Suffered from sleep deprivation these few days. 24 hours are just not enough for me.

Brought food to college, twice a week? :D
Everyone's in love w my mum's handmade yam cake. Yummy, thanks for those who has praised my mum. Sharing is caring. I love to share w my fella friends. Feel good seeing 'em enjoying the food I've brought, aww :)

Feeling great even though the pain is killing me. :(

Someone's birthday is coming! (Y)

fcuk.

2010-03-28T22:35:00.003+08:00

i don't need a friend like you. fuck off.

grr.

2010-03-27T22:34:00.001+08:00

WHATAYA WANT FROM ME ?!
you crazy people.

busy days.

2010-03-27T16:31:00.009+08:00

Know what? Finally, we had our first Moral Education lesson yesterday. Ohh finally, together w March intake people. At the beginning of the lesson, it seemed bored as that was the first time we ever have class w Mr.Arif. Then, when he started to laugh while speaking, that was soooo funny. I wonder why March intake people don't laugh when something funny happened. Never mind, it's okay it's okay. Well, lessons were good, teacher was fun and time passed damn fast yesterday. I enjoyed his class sooo much and I super in love w his sense of humor. If you tried to pay attention during his lesson, you'll find it very interesting, despite of the boredness of that subject. Even teacher said so. He ended his class by saying, "we'll stop here, we can't continue study this boring and difficult subject for such a long time." *something like that.

Isn't he funny? I've no idea why they must did that during his lesson.

Freshie Nite rehearsal was on yesterday and everything went super NOT smoothly. We reached MPH at around 3.30pm w all our card boards, begs and etc. Practised for a few times and then we got up to the stage and did the rehearsal to the SA peeps. In my opinion, M was so much better and funnier. Nemind, as long as we do our best on that day. *I swear I would never want to "fly" on stage again, after this Freshie Nite. It can kills.*

I waited for Bahyiwei from 5.30 to 8.30pm in the MPH for her SA rehearsal thingy to be done. That place was cold and I felt a sense of pain in my gastric. I bet it was because I had just ate 1 roti prata for the breakfast and nothing for lunch.

Walked back Baa's house w Baa, Kekjin, Eric, Cheng & Kang Yi. Madam Teoh bought us dinner. We "Oh Bear Sem" and the minority will have the priority to choose which packet of the food she/he wants. I'm the loser. I took the last packet which was the biggest packet among all. Maggie, Kai Ling, Yu Yi and Aerenia went Baa's house for a small gathering. Around 10pm, Daniel came and practised for the A-level Freshie Nite thingy w Eric's guidance. LOL. Played mahjong, ate jelly and dance - we enjoyed. Morning, we met up and went for basketball & badminton together at the park w/o Kailing & Maggie. Had our breakfast together @ the park. After that, we went to school and helped the SA for the decoration thingy. Phone battery gone flat all of a sudden. AND now, i'm finally back home. Stayover - Tired yet fun! (Y)

I hope the feeling is mutual. But, obviously it is not.

OMG

2010-03-25T19:54:00.004+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGXYZ. I'M SO IN LOVE W YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

like.

2010-03-25T19:41:00.007+08:00

Just had an Induction Day for March Intake peeps and me and Gillian were in charge of Music Club thingy. Reached school at around 8am and when Gill & fellow friends went for their class, I was all alone. And mx, pt, jr, md, solhah & cheryl joined me later. I did not get to join their breakfast as all the board of Music Club is still w me, at that time. Waited patiently while watching video of Youtube - Happy Tree Friends, Annoying Orange & Family Guy.

Music Club senior has performed 2 awesome performance, seperatedly by 1 guy & 2 girls. The song was good, the music was better And the vocal was the Best among all! (Y) Everything's ended at around 1.30pm. Overally great as many people has joined us. Hopefully everything will be fine when we take over.

You looked sad in the morning. Luckily in the afternoon, changed. I feel great when I see you smile, even though I know it is not for me. :)

I met you by surprise during Orientation time. You were the only one I noticed duing that period. Did not know we had the chance to get to know one another. But sad to say, thing like this don't usually last long.

ily.

2010-03-21T12:05:00.002+08:00

I'm so stressed with my college's life. Why is there so many assignments to do? Never mind, I'll still manage to finish everything. Argh, feel super unwell after staring at the com screen for more than 6 hours, without giving myself any rest time.

I think I'd just tire myself out. And so are you.

I've convinced everyone that I hate you and now,
it's time for me to convince myself.

busy.

2010-03-20T15:38:00.003+08:00

Weekends to-do list:
1. CS assignment 2 Question number 1 & 2.
2. EALD task 2.
3. Maths home works + revision.
4. CS home works - DFD.